Still bothered..='(

Still bothered over my fight with mama. I'm really deeply hurt with all the things she said. Things that in my ears seems to imply that I pale in comparison to my other siblings, in terms of sense of responsibility.

I admit I did seem to be irresponsible these past few months. There are times that I fail to give money to them. Or do my household chores.And I sometimes prioritize hanging out with my friends at times. But its not as if I do it regularly. I never go out every week, duh!

What bothers me are all the things she said. Said on purpose just to hurt me.

Why do we always say such harsh things when we're angry? I think verbal assault are more powerful than physical. When you hurt someone physically, wounds heal easily. And he/she can defend himself/herself, or they can just run away to avoid the attack.

But when its words, words coming from people you love, trust, and respect, it penetrates deeply. So deep you won't even knoew how long it takes to forget and forgive.
I wanted to run away. But I can't. All I can do is to avoid her as much as possible. I wanted to act nonchalantly but its impossible...