Manhater-ism Doubled

If my friends will be asked where can they find a certified walking manhater in this planet, all finger will be pointed to me.

And I will, quite indignantly protest that I am not! I don't hate men. I'm just cautious.

I often said that men are indeed a chauvinistic bunch. All men are born to collect women. All the guys I know still courts other girls even if they are already committed.

Except my father that is. Oh, that was, rather.

I used to have this disillusion that my father was some sort of a saint. Except for his being a perfectionist, I never got the chance to see him making mistakes, any trait impairment of kind.

Boy, was I ever wrong.

See, until now his infidelity still doesn't sink in completely. I don't know if that's the reason why I can't hold a grudge against him. Inspite of witnessing how this affects my mother,our whole family. It's really odd. But it seems like I symphatize more with my father than with my mother. I don't know. Maybe because its clear to me that when it comes to the point wherein we have to choose whom shall we go with, my father or my mother, all of us will choose to stay with my mom. And him? I don't know where he will go. And no way will I let him go with his other woman.

And as what I told my sister, I don't care if he's not telling the truth. I will still believe him. I used to say to my friends that when my future husband do that to me, no further discussion, I will call it quits between us right then and there.

But its different pala if you're the kid. It's better to live a lie than to suffer a broken home. As much as possible, you'd want to keep the family intact. Go on like nothing's happened if possible.

But its much too different when you're the wife. Nothing will ever surmount the feeling of betrayal and cheat by the husband. I can't begin to understand how my mother is feeling. So I guess, I cannot blame her for being drunk almost everyday. For closing her doors to any explanation by my father.

I don't know when the wound be totally healed.

As for me, considering marriage has gone to zero. Since I found out about my father's disloyalty, thinking of getting married always ends up to a scene like this. I can't shake the thought of my husband eventually having another woman.

Now I can generalize that all men are womanizers, no more exemptions. Because even my saintly father is
capable of doing just that...