Gushing Gratitude..thanks Pan! :-)

I group-emailed some of my friends yesterday to share with them my misery here because I can't seem to talk to anyone of them on YM. Seems like all of them were busy unlike me.

This was me feeling so miserable with work yesterday:

Hey busy kayo? Hay..wala kasi ko makausap. I just feel so miserable again. One of those work blues siguro. I'm just tired of doing these things. Na wala naman akong na-aaccomplish talaga. I feel so useless and neglected. I'm so tired of this company pero wala namang nag-rerespond sa mga ina-applyan ko . Lagi na lang the vacancy has been filled or you're not the person we're looking for right now. Hayy! Feeling ko super rusty na ng brain ko from not being allowed to function for 11 months. *sigh* Sabi ko nga sa officemate ko kung ito lang pala ang trabahong mabibigay nila sakin, they might as well hire a highschool graduate. Not a degree holder. I just feel like I'm wasting my time here. I gave it siguro 20 chances na. Pero I'm just not happy. Hay naku maz, I know I told you I'll give it a month. Just bear with me for now, hindi ko lang kasi kaya na naman. Feeling ko magwawala ako pag di ko to nailabas..*peace Alam mo yung feeling na you've stayed in one place for several months , made friends with everybody, yet it seems you still don't belong. Na lumipas yung 11months ng wala akong natutunan. I don't even feel like myself anymore. Hindi na ako yung driven and idealistic worker that I think I was before. Yun lang, I feel like I'm losing myself here. And I wanted the old me back..:-(
(Xenxa po, la lang talaga ko maka-usap..hayy>

And this is Pan's reply to my gripes :

There is nothing wrong with trying to make it work. You did great! You were courageous to give it another try for countless times. Like what you told me, some things are never meant to last. If this is not meant for you, gather up all your strengths and faith to move out and face the outside world with a smile. Place yourself as your priority. Do things that will make you happy. If one thing just keeps holding you back, let go. You don't have to sacrifice your happiness for something that is unsure in our life.Everything will be fine, in due time. I always think that way.Everything has its place and that place will have everything that youneed to feel happy and contented.
Tho it sounds like I'm emoting, I think these apply to you too. =)

Thanks Pan! Just when I thought nothing will make me smile, this email did..=)