How many notes like this have I made for the past 2 years? Here I am on my third job, was quite contented for the past 3 months, and suddenly I woke up this afternoon feeling so pathetic.
Yes that's how my life seems since I left college..PATHETIC..
I'm not liking the girl I see everyday on the mirror. I can no longer recognize the person I become. I don't feel like myself anymore. I feel useless, shallow, unproductive. There's this sinking feeling that what I did for the past 3 years is all afloat and go to wherever the waves of life pushes me to.
Don't get me wrong, I have all respect to every call center agents out there. I must admit, before, I thought it's the most lowly job there is and I will never, ever embarass myself by applying for this job. And look how fate made fun of me, I'm a call center agent now.
The job is fun. The environment, the people, the work itself, it all seems like a big playground to me. No stress, no pressure. A different game this time.
The thing is, I'm feeling like the excitement of this game will soon be gone. For how long?
I feel like I've been procrastinating since I've been here. Well, come to think of it, I've been feeling this way for almost three years.
I feel like I should be doing something. Doing what is still a question I've yet to answer.
The thing I'm most scared about is that, if I leave now, there's nothing waiting for me out there. I know I can never go back to a corporate job. Earning minimum wage, doing a meaningless job I know will get me nowhere.
So what's next for me???
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