Practrical Mind Won

A few hours ago, I had a chat with a former schoolmate (and suitor, yebah!). We talked about a lot of things, his trips abroad (he's training in the US, btw), updates on our lives, common friends, AND (of all things) my lack of happiness at work.

Him : Kamusta yung iba?

Me : Sila? Ok naman. Working for the same company for the past two years. I envy their
patience but I can't say I'll follow their path.

Him : So you just want to wander from one work to another? :-)

Me : I'm not sure. Basta I won't sacrifice my happiness and sanity for a job security. So
whenever I felt that I'm no longer happy with a job, I leave.

Him : Deep. Can I ask you a question?

Me : (not quite sure now) sure.

Him : What will fill your cup of happiness then? What will make you happy and give you
security at the same time?

Me : (pauses) Honestly, I don't have an answer to that. Wala akong direksyon kaya wag mo
na ko tanungin. :-)

Him : I think you already have a direction. You just haven't found a way to get there. * wink
(good for him)

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It really got me thinking. Again. Everybody else my age seems to have a concrete direction as to how they want their life managed. Why can't I be like that?

My brain's all so scattered. I can't figure what I really want. I don't know what I need. On top of that, this idealistic side of me is screaming "STAND FOR YOU PRINCIPLE, PRACTICALITY'S OUT OF THE QUESTION!!!" Bullshit that side.

I decided to be practical. Sheesh! I'll just try all right? I'll get a stint in a call center job. Hopefully to save some, maybe go to Singapore or Korea to work after a year. Save some again then have my own business. Hopefully I can endure all these until I turn 25.

See? Coming up with a 3-year life plan is not that bad after all.

Sad..=(